A son who was out there right now, two hundred miles away, living in a one-bedroom apartment above a hardware store, carving pieces of wood and wondering why his life had turned out this way.
And she wanted me to find him.
I opened my eyes and looked at the photograph again.
Brian.
Forty years old. Dark hair. Tired eyes. Brenda’s face.
Could I do it?
Could I drive two hundred miles to a town I had never been to and knock on the door of a man I had never met and tell him that his mother had loved him all along? Could I bring him into my life, into my home, and give him the family Brenda had asked me to give him?
I did not know.
I did not know if I was strong enough.
I did not know if I was brave enough.
But I knew I had to try.
I sat there until the sun went down, staring at the photograph of a man I had never met, Brenda’s son.
And I made a decision that would change everything.
Finding Brian was not hard.
Brenda had kept detailed records.
The hard part was figuring out what I was going to say to him.
I woke up early the next morning before the sun rose. I could not sleep. My mind had been racing all night, replaying everything I had read in that journal. Everything I had learned. Everything I still did not understand.
I went downstairs and made coffee. Then I sat at the kitchen table and spread out the papers Brenda had left behind. The journal. The photographs. The handwritten notes with addresses and phone numbers. Everything Alan Ross had sent her over the years.
There it was.
The address of the woodworking shop where Brian worked.
A small town called Millbrook, five hours away by car.
I memorized the directions, folded the papers carefully, and put them in my jacket pocket.
I was halfway out the door when my phone rang.
Dennis.
I stared at the screen for a moment. Part of me wanted to ignore it. But I knew he would just keep calling, so I answered.
“Morning, Dad,” he said. His voice sounded flat, distant, like always.
“Morning,” I said.
“What are you doing today?”
I hesitated. I did not want to lie to him. But I also could not tell him the truth. Not yet. Not until I understood what I was doing myself.
“I’m going to visit an old friend,” I said finally.
There was a pause on the other end of the line.
“An old friend?” Dennis repeated. “Who?”
“Just someone I used to know,” I said. “No one you would remember.”
Another pause.