It was aimed at both of us.
I could not sleep that night. Something felt wrong. At two in the morning, I got out of bed and went downstairs.
That was when I smelled the smoke.
A few days had passed since Brian came home from the hospital. He was still recovering, still moving slowly, still in pain.
But he was home.
And I thought we were safe.
I was wrong.
That night, I lay in bed staring at the ceiling. My mind would not stop racing. I kept thinking about Dennis. About the ladder. About what Detective Walsh had said, about how Dennis was still out there, free, unpunished. I tried to close my eyes. I tried to tell myself that everything was fine, that the cameras would catch him if he tried anything, that the new locks would keep us safe.
But I could not shake the feeling that something bad was about to happen.
At 2:00 in the morning, I gave up trying to sleep. I got out of bed and went downstairs to the kitchen. I poured myself a glass of water and stood by the sink, looking out the window at the dark fields.
And that was when I smelled it.
Smoke.
Faint at first, but unmistakable.
I set the glass down and walked to the window.
And then I saw it.
A glow, orange and flickering, coming from the barn.
Fire.
The barn was on fire.
And Brian was in there.
I had converted the loft above the barn into a small living space for Brian. It was quiet, private, a place where he could rest without feeling like he was in the way. He had gone to bed a few hours earlier, exhausted from the day’s work.
“Brian,” I shouted, even though I knew he could not hear me from inside the house.
I ran.
I did not even think.
I just ran.
Out the back door. Across the yard. Toward the barn.
I pulled my phone out of my pocket as I ran and dialed 911.
“911, what is your emergency?”
“Fire,” I shouted. “My barn is on fire. Someone is inside. We are at Patterson Farm, Route 12.”
“Fire department is on the way,” the operator said. “Stay outside. Do not go in.”
But I could not stay outside.
Brian was in there.
When I reached the barn, I grabbed the door handle and pulled.
It did not move.
I pulled harder.
Still nothing.
The door was stuck.
No.
Not stuck.
Blocked.
Something had been wedged against it from the outside.
I could see smoke seeping through the cracks around the door. I could hear the roar of the flames inside.
“Brian!” I screamed. “Brian, can you hear me?”
No answer.