I believed him. My God, how I believed him. I preferred the comfort of ignorance to the call of instinct. I never wondered why Lily stopped running to the door when I arrived. I never wondered why she always wore long sleeves, even in summer. I never wondered why, at dinner parties, she looked at Amanda before taking each bite.
I thought he was rushing to the hospital because of an accident. A fall down the stairs. Maybe appendicitis. How naive I was.
The smell of the hospital hit me the moment I stepped through the automatic doors: that mixture of strong disinfectant and human fear. I ran to the information desk. “My daughter. Lily Carter. Where is she?”
The nurse looked at me, and in her eyes I saw something that stopped me in my tracks. It wasn’t just pity. It was horror. —Third floor. Pediatric Burn and Trauma Unit.
Burned? The word echoed in my skull. I stepped into the elevator, feeling like I couldn’t breathe. When the doors opened, a doctor was waiting for me. “Mr. Carter, before you go in… you need to prepare yourself. Lily is sedated, but conscious. The pain is… unimaginable.”
I entered the room. It was dimly lit, illuminated only by the flickering lights of the monitors. And there, in the middle of that bed that seemed far too large for her eight-year-old body, was my little girl. She was so pale she almost blended into the sheets. But my eyes went straight to her hands. Both hands were wrapped in thick bandages, like boxing gloves made of gauze, lightly stained with a yellowish fluid and blood. They were propped up on pillows.
“Daddy?” The sound was a thread of a voice, broken and dry. I collapsed beside the bed. The tears I’d been holding back burst forth. I wanted to hold her, but I was afraid to touch her and cause her more pain. “I’m here, princess. Daddy’s here. What happened, my love? Was it an accident with the stove?”
Lily opened her eyes. They were wells of terror. She stared at the door, scanning the hallway in a panic. Her breathing quickened, making the heart monitor beep. “Don’t let her in,” she whispered, tears streaming down her cheeks. “Please, Daddy, promise you won’t let her in.”