I have 11-month-old twin boys. If you’ve never had twins, imagine sleep deprivation becoming part of your personality.
For almost a year, I hadn’t slept more than three consecutive hours.
Mark, my husband, traveled for work at least twice a month, sometimes more.
I have 11-month-old twin boys.
Besides each other, we have no family.
My parents passed away years ago, and I was their only child. Mark grew up in foster care, moving from one home to another. We didn’t have grandparents to call or a backup plan.
Two weeks before everything unraveled, I broke down on the kitchen floor.
“I can’t keep doing this,” I told Mark over the phone while Liam screamed in the background and Noah banged a spoon against the high chair tray. “I’m so tired I can’t even think straight anymore.”
We didn’t have grandparents to call or a backup plan.
Mark’s voice softened immediately. “You shouldn’t have to do this alone. I should’ve hired help months ago.”
We hired through a licensed agency. I wouldn’t have trusted anything less. They ran background checks, verified references, and confirmed CPR certification. I made sure of it myself.
If something went wrong, it wouldn’t be because I hadn’t done enough.
They sent us Mrs. Higgins, a woman who looked around 60. Her smile was warm, and she carried herself like someone who’d raised children who respected her.
They sent us Mrs. Higgins, a woman who looked around 60.
“Oh my little darlings,” she said the moment she saw the boys.
My sons, who normally screamed at strangers, crawled straight into her lap.
I stared at Mark. He stared back at me.
“Well, that feels like a good sign.”
It felt like oxygen.
Within days, Mrs. Higgin knew the rhythm of our house better than I did. She warmed bottles without asking, folded laundry so precisely it looked pressed, and reorganized our linen closet exactly how Mark liked it.
“Oh my little darlings.”
The boys adored Mrs. Higgins. She was perfect.
For the first time in months, it felt like God finally remembered me.
One evening, Mark surprised me. “I booked us a spa overnight. Just one night. No monitors or interruptions.”