Madrid was the same as always—cars, people talking on their phones, the smell of coffee drifting from cafés.
But something inside me had broken in a place where air no longer reached.
On the train back to Salamanca, I opened old messages from Diego.
There was one from the week before:
“Someday, when everything calms down, we’ll have our baby. I promise.”
I read it again and again, feeling each word slowly turn into poison.
When I got home, he was in the kitchen making a Spanish omelet.
“How did the checkup go?” he asked without turning around, as if he had sent me to the dentist.
“Fine,” I lied, placing my bag on the table with exaggerated care. “The doctor wants to repeat a few tests.”
Diego turned then. His dark eyes scanned my face, searching.
“Any problem?”
I looked at him, trying to find the man I had spent seven years with. I saw the confident doctor, the respected professional in town, the husband who always knew exactly what to say at dinners with friends. And for the first time I also saw the man who might have decided, on some ordinary afternoon, to cut away my future without even asking me.
“I don’t know yet,” I replied, holding his gaze. “But I’m going to find out.”
In the weeks that followed, my life split into two layers.
On the surface, everything continued the same: my job at the law firm in Salamanca, dinners with friends, visits from my in-laws, Sunday afternoons watching shows on the couch with Diego.
Underneath, in silence, I began gathering evidence—medical reports, copies of emails, anything that could place me at that Friday appointment with sedation and the so-called “deep examination.”
Álvaro referred me to a colleague at the Hospital Clínico in Madrid, Dr. Teresa Valverde. She confirmed the diagnosis without hesitation: the implants were correctly placed, and the procedure was essentially irreversible except through complex surgery with no guarantees.
“Did I sign anything?” I asked desperately, though I already knew the answer.
“There’s no record of your signature on any sterilization consent form in your file,” she said while looking at the screen. “But if the procedure was done at a private clinic, we’d need their documentation.”