My parents lived in one of those neighborhoods that looked as though developers had designed it around aspiration rather than comfort: broad lawns, stone facades, silent garages, imported trees, and a kind of curated perfection that made every home resemble a showroom for wealth rather than a place where messy human beings actually lived. Their house sat at the end of a gently curving drive lined with trimmed hedges and white hydrangeas my mother cared about more consistently than she had ever cared about my emotions.
The air smelled like cut grass and early rain when I parked.
I remember stepping out carefully, one hand braced against the small of my back, and feeling an odd restlessness move through me. Not pain exactly. More like pressure. Tightness. A quiet signal from my body that something was shifting out of sequence.
Inside, the house was immaculate and cool.
My mother sat at the kitchen island scrolling through her phone, one leg crossed over the other, dressed for dinner in cream slacks and a silk blouse the color of champagne. A glass of sparkling water with lemon sat untouched beside her. She looked up once, took in my swollen ankles, the loose maternity dress, my windblown hair, and made the sort of expression women reserve for wrinkled linens.
“There you are,” she said. “The folder?”
I handed it to her. “You could have had a courier pick this up.”
“That would have been ridiculous when you were available.”
Not hello. Not how are you feeling.
The kitchen smelled faintly of citrus polish and whatever candle she was burning to make the room seem more expensive than it already was. Through the archway I could see my father in the den, seated in his leather chair with the newspaper spread wide, television muted, as if he were posing for a catalog called Aging Privilege.
“Hi, Dad,” I called.
He lifted one hand without looking up.
That same tightness flickered again low in my back.
I pressed a hand there and exhaled slowly.
“You look pale,” my mother said, though not with concern. “Have you been eating properly?”
“Yes.”
“Pregnancy doesn’t suit everyone equally, I suppose. Claire was radiant.”
I smiled without warmth. “Claire has always been willing to perform radiance.”
My mother’s eyes sharpened. “There’s no need for nastiness.”