He was an electrical engineer, three years older than me, and worked for a large energy company in Texas. Logan was calm, polite, and had almost no bad habits, he did not drink much, did not stay out late, and always treated me with a quiet gentleness that made me feel safe.
Many people said I had found a good husband, and even my mother once told me in a half joking tone, “A man who seems too perfect sometimes makes me uneasy,” but I only laughed because at that time I believed I had finally found stability after years of disappointing relationships.
During the entire time we dated, Logan never did anything that made me suspicious, and after ten months we got married in a small church on the edge of the city, with my parents traveling from Phoenix and only a few close friends attending.
I still remember how my mother looked at him silently before whispering to me, “He is good, but he feels too quiet,” and I brushed it off, thinking she was just being protective as always.
After the wedding, I moved into his house, a large two story home in a quiet neighborhood outside Austin where he lived with his mother Evelyn, a widow in her late fifties who rarely left her room and spent most of her time reading or watching television.
She was polite but distant, and at first I thought she was simply reserved, so I tried my best to adapt to my new life by cooking, cleaning, and learning the rhythm of the household, believing everything was normal.
There was only one thing that felt strange from the very beginning, and that was Logan’s constant avoidance of intimacy.
On our wedding night, when I sat beside him feeling nervous but hopeful, he gently took my hand and said, “I think we should wait a little,” and when I asked, “Wait for what,” he only smiled softly and said, “There is no rush.”
I assumed he was overwhelmed from the wedding, so I did not push, but that little delay turned into weeks, then months, and eventually years.
Every time I tried to get closer to him, he found an excuse, sometimes it was work, sometimes stress, sometimes he said he was too tired, and at first I tried to be understanding because I did not want to pressure him, but after the first year I began to feel confused and hurt.