Good day, dear listeners. It’s Clara again. I’m glad you’re here with me. Please like this video and listen to my story till the end, and let me know which city you’re listening from. That way I can see how far my story has traveled.
People always ask me how I managed to stay married for 52 years. I used to laugh and say it was stubbornness and good coffee. The truth was simpler than that. I loved Harold. I loved the way he folded his newspaper in thirds before reading it. I loved how he called our golden retriever the senator because the dog had a way of walking into a room like he owned it. I loved the house on Birwood Lane in Connecticut. Four bedrooms, a wraparound porch, the old maple tree Harold planted the year our son was born. We had built something real, or so I believed.
My name is Margaret Elaine Caldwell. I was 76 years old when the ground beneath my feet began to shift. Harold was 78. We had three children, our son Douglas, who lived in Phoenix with his wife Renee, and our two daughters, Patricia and Susan, both in the Boston area. Six grandchildren between them. Every Thanksgiving, the house smelled like cornbread and cinnamon. That was the life I knew. That was the life I thought was permanent.
The first sign came on a Tuesday in late October. I remember because the leaves had just peaked, that particular orange and gold Connecticut does better than anywhere on earth. I had gone to the pharmacy to pick up Harold’s blood pressure medication and mine, and the pharmacist told me Harold had called ahead to change the billing address on his account. Not ours. His. A post office box in Westport I had never heard of.
I told myself it was a mistake. Harold was forgetful. He was 78. These things happen.
But then I noticed he had started closing his laptop when I entered the room. Harold, who had spent 30 years as a civil engineer and claimed he would never understand computers, was suddenly protective of a screen. He took phone calls in the garage. He began driving to the hardware store on Saturday mornings and returning two hours later without a single bag. Once, I smelled perfume on his jacket collar, something young and synthetic, nothing I recognized.