“I didn’t wear it.”
“Obviously.”
She glanced past me toward the front doors where new guests were still entering.
“Your father invited donors tonight. Real donors. People who matter. Why would you arrive looking like this?”
I almost smiled.
She genuinely thought my dress looked cheap because it didn’t advertise itself.
“I’m comfortable,” I said.
Her mouth hardened.
“Comfortable is not the goal.”
That sentence could have been engraved over the front door of my childhood home.
Then, lowering her voice even more, she said, “And what is this nonsense with the car?”
“It’s mine.”
She gave a dry laugh.
“Please. Joselyn, I do not have the time tonight. If you are trying to prove something with a lease you can’t afford, I am begging you not to embarrass us with repossession drama in front of city people.”
I looked at her for a long second.
“Is that why I’m here?” I asked. “To reassure you my car won’t embarrass you?”
“You’re here because your father asked you to come.”
Which meant no, of course.
She squeezed my arm harder.
“There will be a formal presentation later. You are not to drift. You are not to corner anyone important. And you are not to sit at the front.”
“Where am I sitting?”
“Table twelve.”
I followed the direction of her eyes.
The back corner of the ballroom. Near the service doors. Not quite hidden, but close enough to signal exactly what she wanted signaled.
“I thought Dad said family meeting.”
“This is a family event,” she snapped. Then, seeing someone important over my shoulder, she arranged her face back into something pleasant. “And one more thing. Use the service hallway when you go in. We don’t need a scene at the front entrance.”
There it was.
Not even subtle.
My own mother was sending me through the staff corridor so her friends wouldn’t have to see me cross the main floor.
Ten years earlier, that would have crushed me.
That night, it only clarified things.
I leaned in and said quietly, “You seem nervous.”
She stiffened.
“Don’t be absurd.”
“You and Dad don’t usually bother with me unless you want something.”
Her eyes flashed.
“What we want, Joselyn, is for one evening in this family to proceed without your damage trailing through it.”
Then she turned away from me with a bright social laugh and glided toward a councilwoman in cobalt silk as if she hadn’t just said any of it.
I adjusted my purse, turned toward the service hallway, and tapped the side button on my watch twice.