He died a year after I won the lottery.

That is the detail I cannot tell without something in me tightening, even now.

Grandpa Eamon Soryn lived in a narrow blue house three streets over from the river, in the older part of Harborpoint where porch railings needed paint and people still fixed things rather than replaced them. He had been a maintenance supervisor at the shipyard for thirty years, which may be why he never once disrespected my janitor job. He used to say a building tells the truth to the people who clean it, repair it, or stay late enough to hear the pipes. He was the only one who ever looked at my work boots and saw skill instead of embarrassment.

“Anybody can wear a suit,” he told me once while tightening the hinges on his back gate. “Try keeping the world running in the dark and see who still thinks they’re above you.”

When I was a kid and the rest of my family found ways to make me feel oversized, intense, or not quite properly formed for the life they preferred, Grandpa never tried to sand anything down. He taught me how to use tools correctly, how to read grain in wood, how to change a tire, how to look a man in the eye without asking permission for space. He let silence exist between us without filling it with correction.

The memory box I went back for that morning had been his.

A cedar chest, really. Small enough for one man to carry if he lifted with his legs. After Grandpa died, my parents emptied his house like they were processing a storage unit. Anything with resale value went first. The rest got divided into trash, donation piles, and whatever my mother called sentimental clutter. I had been the one to rescue the cedar chest from a damp corner of the garage before Jace used it to hold golf clubs. Inside were old photographs, Grandpa’s shipyard badge, his letters from my grandmother, the pocketknife he carried every day, a brass compass, a few notebooks, and a sealed envelope with my name on it I hadn’t yet opened because I couldn’t bear the finality.

That chest was the only thing in my parents’ house I truly cared about.

Maybe that was why I lasted three years there after winning.

Not because I was noble.

Not because I enjoyed testing them.