I’d spent 12 years giving them nothing to work with. Every vague answer, every deflection, every “I can’t talk about it” had created a vacuum, and Amanda had filled it with the only conclusion that served her—that I was doing nothing.
I called my best friend that night, Captain Sarah Nguyen. We’d come up together through the military intelligence pipeline at Fort Huachuca, and she was now stationed at Fort Meade doing work as classified as mine. Sarah was the one person outside my chain of command who understood both halves of my life, the classified half and the family half. She’d met Amanda once at a barbecue three years earlier and had said afterward, “Your sister is the kind of person who counts other people’s blessings and calls them her own.”
I told Sarah what happened. All of it. Amanda’s words. Jake’s laugh. The silence. Colonel O’Neal.
Sarah was quiet for a moment, then she said, “What did you expect?”
“I didn’t expect her to call me a leech in front of a colonel.”
“No, I mean what did you expect from your family? You’ve been protecting them from the truth for 12 years. You hand them the same blank card every time they ask, and then you’re surprised when they write their own story on it. Amanda didn’t come up with leech in a vacuum, Amelia. She filled in the blanks with whatever made her feel better about herself. And nobody corrected her because nobody had the information to correct her with.”
She was right. I knew she was right.
“So what are you going to do?” Sarah asked.
I watched the parking lot lights flicker through my windshield. A cat crossed the asphalt between two cars, paused, and disappeared under a dumpster.
“I’m going to set a boundary,” I said. “For the first time in my life, I’m going to tell Amanda that what she said is not acceptable. And if she can’t hear that, I’m going to stop showing up.”
“Good,” Sarah said. “It’s about time.”
The next morning, I called my parents. My father answered on the second ring. He sounded tired. The kind of tired that has nothing to do with sleep.
“Dad, I need to tell you something, and I need you to hear me out.”
“I’m listening.”