"She even makes light of these behaviors as if everything she did was my fault."
"Should we or should we not get married?"
I pushed Natalya off my lap and said seriously, "You're right. Maybe we should both calm down and think about whether we should get married or not."
Natalya looked stunned.
Maybe she didn't expect me to say such things.
But I ignored her as I went to my room to fall asleep.
I had been thinking about this matter all day.
I was lost in so much thought that I was a little distracted at work the next day.
I was thinking about the bits and pieces of the years I had spent with Natalya.
I recalled the year when I had been sick. Natalya gave up her good job to take care of me.
After that, she moved into my house for the convenience of taking care of me. The fact that she was gentle and considerate touched me so much.
It was during that time that I firmly believed that she was the one I wanted to be with.
I wanted to marry her and be with her until we grew old.
After work, I returned home.
I prepared a candlelight dinner carefully.
Tonight, on the fifth anniversary of our relationship, I planned to get drunk with her and make it clear that if she chose to be with me, she should not have such close contact with her ex anymore.
But I waited until eight p.m. She was nowhere to be seen.
I turned on my cell phone and planned to call her to ask what she was doing.
But when I was about to dial, I hesitated.
I shouldn't be as humble as before.
I turned on my cell phone and casually scrolled through it. Then I found that she had posted on Facebook at 7 p.m. [Cheers to our tenth anniversary of knowing each other.]
The picture shows a photo of her and Spencer dining together, with both of them wearing a string of beads on their wrists, one black and one white.
Spencer in the photo was smiling happily, and I couldn't tell that he was heartbroken because of his divorce.
Looking at the photo, I was so heartbroken.
Only those who had truly loved me could understand my feelings.
But soon, I looked at the photo again. I suddenly felt less pain.
I silently logged out of my Facebook account.
I thought I had got the answer I wanted.
Natalya's Facebook post told me everything.
Even if she married me, she wouldn't leave her ex in the dust!
Realizing this, I felt relieved instead. I was no longer worried about it!
I even felt lucky in my heart that I hadn't called her.