His Kindness to Me Almost Drives Me Crazy1

On the day when Asher Dunlap's song became popular everywhere, I asked him for a divorce.

My friends thought I was crazy, saying that Asher treated me so well. Now he was so successful. They thought of me as a scumbag.

"But I am the only one who knows that I will indeed go crazy if I don't leave."

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"But it seems that they don't like the song I released this time. I know I'm not good enough, but I spent a long time writing it. I kept thinking about how to improve it all the time. I tried so hard." Asher looked gloomy.

I took a deep breath and suppressed the impatience in my heart. My head was dizzy. I could fall asleep at any moment.

"Everyone has their preferences. It doesn't mean you're not good enough. Look, you said the same thing about your previous songs, but they sold well."

I found that I seemed to be wasting my efforts. Exhausting the last bit of patience, I emphasized and said, "I'm so tired today. Let's talk about this tomorrow when I wake up."

"Okay." Asher paused for a few seconds. He glanced at me with a bit of resentment, saying, "But it is so important to me..."

I told myself not to say anything. I drank the water and went straight back to the room. I didn't want to continue comforting Asher.

"Why don't you answer me? Are you angry? Sorry, I'm too sad. Please don't be angry, okay? Don't be silent in front of me. It will make me sad."

Asher came over and hugged me. Taking away the cup of water that I had only taken a sip from, he was determined to focus my attention on him.

I felt suffocated.

I looked down at my empty palm. I no longer could hold myself back.

"Can you be quiet for a while?" I spoke calmly as the exhaustion overwhelmed me.

"It has been half an hour since I came home. During this period, I did nothing except comfort Asher.

Asher couldn't sense my despair and plea. He stared at me with his eyes wide open as if I said something extraordinary.

"I know he is going to do it again."

I begged, looking into Asher's eyes. I struggled to make him know my meaning.

"I have been working all day. After work, I went to the hospital. My father's condition has not improved. My mother keeps crying. I am so tired. I know you are unhappy, but I don't have the energy today."

Asher shut up with his Adam's apple moving. He didn't find my explanation acceptable.