After our twin daughters died in a fire, Luna Brown broke down and became mentally ill.
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Luna forgot all our past and tried her best to crawl into her first love's bed.
I brought her home again and again, but she cursed me to die again and again.
I held her helplessly and smiled bitterly. "If I die, and you can get better, then I promise you."
"Nolan, I love you. Mateo Harold, that bastard, forced me. Will you still want me?"
The phone showed that Luna was only wearing underwear.
Her slim figure kept trembling.
But she looked at Nolan Carter as if he were a god.
She tugged at Nolan's trouser leg and refused to let go.
The people around were whooping.
The camera panned slowly across the crowd and then focused on Luna's face.
She looked up with her big watery eyes.
"Luna, Mateo said he wants to pick you up and take you home. Do you want to go back?"
"No! I don't want to! Fuck that guy!"
...
Just as Nolan finished speaking, Luna screamed.
Then he turned the camera on himself.
He sneered and said, "Mateo, what does it matter if you won in the first place? Luna is still willing to be my whore."
After saying that, he turned and asked Luna to bark like a dog.
I heard a sweet barking sound on the phone.
My heart tightened instantly, and I shouted angrily into the phone, "Nolan, fuck you!"
I arrived at the private room.
Luna was surrounded by a group of people.
Her pale skin was exposed, and she gulped down a bottle of beer.
Her little face turned red, and she leaned close to Nolan, shaking the empty bottle. "Nolan, I finished it. Am I a good girl?"
Nolan responded coldly, "Yeah."
There were many hangers-on around, sneering.
"Nolan, you're really something. Ms. Brown used to be arrogant, but now she's so humble in front of you."
"Yeah, thanks to you, we now can see how pretty she is."
"Her father promised her to you, but she ran away with that poor guy Mateo. He doesn't deserve her."
"Ms. Brown, here is another bottle. Nolan will be even happier if you finish it."
Luna saw that Nolan ignored her.
She reached out to take the bottle.
I kicked the door open and grabbed her outstretched hand.
I wrapped the coat I brought around her.
She looked up at me in a daze.
There was a scared look in her eyes, and she hurriedly pushed me away.
Just after finishing the treatment, I was pushed and stumbled.
She hid behind Nolan.
And she stared at me vigilantly.
I held onto the table to steady myself and calmly looked into her eyes.
"Luna, come home with me."
Luna shook her head frantically. "Mateo, are you shameless? How many times have I told you? I hate you the most!"
I froze in place.
Then I smiled and firmly shook my head at her. "No, Luna, you've forgotten again. You clearly like me the most."
Luna froze, and the people around stopped laughing and joking and fell silent.
They were all too familiar with the history between me and Luna.
Luna came from a rich family and was the finest girl on campus.
She was the goddess at high school and university.
She was the most beautiful girl there.
No one expected that Luna would end up with me.
I first met Luna when I was sixteen.
Both she and I had just started high school.
It was May 1st.
My mom was abused by my dad and died in the hospital.
I acted on impulse and stabbed my dad thirteen times.
I was only detained for fifteen days due to being a minor, and after that, I continued to attend school as usual.
But from then on, I became an orphan and an outcast.
My dad's relatives hated my guts.
My mom was abused for years and refused to listen to her family's advice to divorce.
And I had long lost contact with them.
My grandmother sometimes lay at the school gate crying and cursing me to die.
It seemed like I suddenly had no connection with this world.
That day, I stood on the top of the school building. It was so high as if I could reach the clouds.
I suddenly became relieved.
Just when I was about to jump, I was suddenly grabbed by the back of my neck and pulled down.
Hands on hips, Luna scolded me, "Do you want to jump off the building?"
"Do you know that I'm on duty today? If you jump off the building, there will be many people coming to watch, and it will create a lot of garbage. I won't be able to go home on time to watch my favorite cartoon!"
I was shocked by her complaint, obediently let her pull me down, and apologized to her politely.
Afterwards, she always stared at me fiercely.
When my grandparents came to make trouble, I never spoke up. I hated my dad and them.
I hated it when my dad hit my mom and said that women were cheap and deserved to be beaten!
But Luna was different.
She scolded even more fiercely than my grandma, saying, "You old witch, why don't you go to the authorities? Stop causing trouble at our school and disturbing us."
My grandma was about to fall to the ground.
Luna took a quick step forward, covering her head and alleging that my grandma hit her head.
I didn't know what she did afterwards, but my grandma never showed up again.
My life became much quieter.
Rumors started spreading at school that I was hers.
I found out later that she punished many people who badmouthed me behind my back.
She helped me, and I didn't want her reputation damaged.
In addition, my parents died and there was no money to support me.
So I decided to drop out of school.
That day, Luna was riding a bicycle very fast, with veins popping on her forehead. "Mateo, you fucking come back to me!"
Afraid that something dangerous happened to her, I got off the bus.
We talked for a long time, and in the end, she patted my shoulder like an adult. "Don't worry about money. I will figure it out. After all, school is important."
"I have confidence in you. You're different from those rich boys messing around all day."
"And I read your diary. No one loves you, so you want to die, right?"
"I'll love you from now on. Will you be my boyfriend?"
My face was burning, but I understood that she and I were not from the same world.
I lowered my head and said nothing.
She became anxious. "Do you still want to die? Hey! Do you look down on me? Or do you think I'm lying?"
Soon, she turned her bright eyes, cupped her hands around her mouth, and shouted to the traffic, "Luna likes Mateo so so so much!"
I never took her words seriously.
She was just a young girl who took pity on me and tried to save a life.
But I got a reason to live.
But she really treated me as her own and took good care of me.
It wasn't until we grew up that I realized she really liked me.
She begged her parents to break off her engagement to Nolan.
She wanted to be with me.
For this, I knelt with her in front of her parents' house for three days and three nights.
But because I killed my biological father, her parents didn't approve of the match.
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That night, Luna, who was as beautiful as a rose, was on the verge of withering for the first time.
...
She snuggled in my arms and said, "Mateo, I have no home anymore."
"We will work together, and one day my parents will accept you."
I held her tightly, feeling heartbroken.
I was inarticulate, only responding, "Okay."
But in my heart, I made a very serious promise.
If her parents hadn't come to see us, they wouldn't have died in a car accident on their way back.
If our twin daughters hadn't died in a fire...
If none of this had happened...
"Luna?"
"Do you like Mateo?"
Nolan sneered and leaned close to Luna's ear.
Luna instantly came to her senses, gave me a contemptuous look, and turned her head.
"No, I hate Mateo the most."
"I only like you, Nolan."
"Then how do you prove it?"
Nolan was very persuasive.
Luna gritted his teeth and took off her coat.
Once again, she was naked. "I can do anything."
Everyone's gaze on her was a disgrace to me!
I frowned and rushed to Nolan's side.
I punched him. "You fucker! How dare you!!"
Luna screamed.
Nolan and I started fighting.
But soon, my back ached.
I turned my head.
Luna's eyes were full of resentment, and she inserted a shard of glass into me harder. "Don't hurt Nolan!"
The wound was really deep.
I vomited a lot of blood.
Everyone fled out of the private room in panic.
"Crazy woman," Nolan cursed and rushed out.
Luna wanted to chase after him, but I tightly held her wrist.
She kicked me frantically. "Let go of me, you bastard. I need Nolan!"
She kept kicking and hitting me, and my whole body was in pain.
I dialed Camila Allen's number.
My heavy eyelids drooped as I tiredly held her tightly.
"Luna, stop it."
"Mateo!"
Camila's scream rang out, and I finally felt relieved.
When I woke up again, I found myself in the hospital.
Just as I opened my eyes, I saw Camila's tearful eyes.
She was tidying up the quilt while muttering, "Are you an idiot? Why did you indulge her like this? She's not the Luna we know any more!"
"Do you know that as her best friend, I want to kill her for hurting you over and over again?"
A year ago, Luna's parents mentioned that the company was in crisis.
They hoped Luna would enter into a business alliance through marriage.
But she refused.
Unexpectedly, on the same day that her parents returned home, they died in a car accident.
Luna blamed herself for this.
And she showed some signs of depression.
Fortunately, our two daughters were by her side.
That day, I just went out to buy some groceries.
The house was on fire unexpectedly.
When I rushed into the fire, I only saw Luna lying unconscious on the ground.
I carried Luna out the door.
Later, I found our two daughters in the bedroom.
With my last bit of strength, I managed to get them out of the fire, but unfortunately, they were too young and couldn't make it through in the end.
After waking up, Luna broke down and tried to commit suicide several times, but I stopped her.
She kept running away from reality and some sort of self-defense mechanism altered her original memories.
Subconsciously, if she had listened to her parents and married Nolan, neither her parents nor our daughters would have died.
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I was a villain who took her from Nolan, and she hated my guts.
Fortunately, the doctor said that as time went by, she would overcome this hurdle and recover.
So I had been taking her for treatment.
And I insisted on telling her about our past over and over again.
Because I rushed into the fire many times and stayed in the smoke for too long, all my internal organs were damaged.
I had been struggling because I couldn't give Luna up.
She hurt me many times.
At first, Camila was afraid that I would dislike Luna, and warned me more than once not to be a scumbag.
Later, Luna kept running away from reality and was much meaner to me.
Camila started asking me to send Luna to the mental hospital.
But I knew Luna was not sick.
She would get better.
"Where is Luna?"
I didn't know how to answer Camila. I looked around and didn't see Luna.
I got up anxiously.
Camila pressed me back onto the bed. "She fell asleep. I took her home."
"The doctor said that if the wound was a little deeper, you would be dead. Why bother with her?"
When I heard that Luna was not here, I suddenly felt hopeless.
I lay back on the bed and stopped talking.
Camila sighed, "Alright, I know Luna is the most important person in your heart!"
"I have already made inquiries about what you need. Dr. Green will come here next month and she is very interested in Luna's condition. I will help you contact her."
I opened my eyes and looked at her sincerely. "Thank you."
After staying in the hospital for a few days, I was still worried about Luna.
I asked Camila to help me with the discharge procedures.
As soon as I opened the door, a bucket of cold water poured down on me, making me feel chilled to the bone.
The whole living room was in a mess.
The floor was littered with broken glass.
Luna stood on the stairs, looking at me triumphantly, her arms crossed.
I smiled at her and said, "Luna, it seems like you have been busy these days."
Her triumphant expression froze.
Then Luna picked up a vase angrily and threw it at me.
It came flying at my chest.
The wound on my back, which had been hit, split open and I staggered.
"Will this make you feel better?"
"Mateo, you're a son of a bitch!"
"Why didn't you die in the hospital?"
Luna stomped her foot and cursed me.
I calmly shook my head at her and said, "Luna, you're silly. You remembered it wrong again. You always say Mateo is the best."
Mateo was the best.
I liked to hear Luna say that.
When would Luna get her memory back?
Feeling angry, Luna turned around and stomped back to her room.
There was a bang.
I looked at the mess on the floor, shook my head, and smiled bitterly. Then I started cleaning up.
Fortunately, Luna made a fuss today, so she would be quiet for a while.
I carefully cleaned every nook and cranny of the house.
Finally, I put the shredded family photo pieces on the coffee table.
I took out the glue and skillfully stuck them together.
I took the photo upstairs, and Luna sulked under the quilt.
The quilt was bulging in the middle.
I walked over and patted it, and Luna immediately pulled back the quilt cautiously.
I ignored her resentful gaze and hugged her tight as usual.
I pointed to the family photo and patiently told her about our past.
At first, she was unwilling to listen to me.
But suddenly she became obedient and let me hold her.
I had no idea how long I talked.
Her small hand gently stroked the wound on my back.
The movement was gentle and intimate.
I couldn't believe it and turned around.
I met a pair of eyes as red as a little rabbit.
Her eyes were filled with tears.
I kept thinking about them day and night.
The most beautiful sound in the world reached me. "I remember everything now."
"I'm sorry, Mateo. Does it hurt?"