I sent everything. Every screenshot. Every recording. Every financial trail showing $30,000 a month diverted from Family tribute to a safehouse in Maplewood. Every photo. Every timestamped call log. All of it, transmitted in a series of attachments to my mentor, a fixer who handled the legal architecture of separations for women who needed to leave powerful men and survive the leaving. She was the best. She had gotten wives out of situations that made mine look simple. She would know what to do with this.
I was going to secure the best future for my child, no matter what.
By the time I finished, the rain had already soaked the hem of my dress. The fabric clung to my ankles, heavy and cold. Oddly enough, I barely noticed. The calm held. It held me upright, held my hands steady, held the panic at bay long enough for me to do what needed doing.
Just as I put my phone away, it rang.
The screen lit up with a name that made my chest tighten in a way nothing else had all night.
Mom.
I pressed my thumb against the bare metal of my wedding ring, turning it once, and answered.
"Olivia, I made some soup for you and brought it to the house." Rosa Ferraro's voice came through the speaker warm and certain, the voice of a woman who believed soup could fix most things and love could fix the rest. "Where are you and Dante? Why aren't you home?"
Before I could respond, she continued. "Oh, that Dante. You're this far along, and he's still taking you out? You really need to be careful right now."
Hearing my mom's voice felt like a blow. Like opening a floodgate I had been trying so hard to keep closed. All the pain I had been holding in grew into an overwhelming weight, pressing down on my chest. The calm cracked. Not all at once. In a single fissure, running from somewhere behind my sternum up through my throat, and behind the crack was everything I had not allowed myself to feel for the past two hours. The parking lot. The kiss. The smug look through the window. The seven years.
I bit down hard on my lip, fighting back the sob rising in my throat. The pain of suppressing it sent a shiver through my entire body. My free hand gripped the edge of the awning's support column. The metal was cold and wet and real, and I held on to it because I needed something real.
"Mom, don't worry," I said, forcing a smile even though she couldn't see me.